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Terry Cummings's avatar

That’s a great statement that I’d not considered thus far. A higher, limitless and omnipotent power is a bit to consider. The freedom to choose what it’s represented by may make the concept less overwhelming as in that of a loving, forgiving and nurturing Mother Earth or Cosmos. Either way, the God of recovery issues from an open mind. I’ll call her Grace.

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Deidre Woollard's avatar

Beautiful piece. As a Unitarian Universalist I find god everywhere and nowhere. Sometimes I wish I had the deep belief that some people I know have, it seems so comforting, a thick blanket of trust.

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Anne's avatar

Agree wish I had deeper belief too.

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Audrey's avatar

Thank you for this beautiful piece of writing. The childhood part was...well...it made me feel sad for the child.

I'm protective about my daughter's sense of spirituality. We talk about it similar to the way we talk about body autonomy. Her thoughts/feelings about the big questions are hers and hers alone, and anything anyone else (even me) tells her is that person's idea alone.

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Cary Frazee's avatar

I have been enjoying this blog until today. God belief is just another addiction to me. If it helps you, fine. But this blog was just nonsense to me. Perhaps you should listen to that part of you that says you should not drink the Koolaid, even if it means giving up on the fantasy that you won’t die. Even if it means there is no Big Daddy to come rescue you. Even if you are being pressured at AA to pretend or be silent.

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The Small Bow's avatar

Ok!

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Jeni Kang P's avatar

I really identify with the all-or-nothing God struggle. My own parents were atheists for a long time. I was the kid who made straight A’s in confirmation and grew up to be (briefly) a youth pastor, then renounced it all in my late twenties and considered that settled for a long time. The last few years of life have made me half wish I could believe again. The other night I dreamed that a friend and I talked for the first time about how he died and his side of the conversation was so antithetical to my current beliefs about death that it has stuck in my craw and made me emotional trying to reconcile what I want to believe with where I’m at. Surprising visitations aren’t off the table, it seems! Anyway, I related to this lot and appreciated the words.

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