I was one of the anonymous checks in back in September about my use of THC. I am finally white knuckling off after 20 years of daily use, as I had hoped to do. It’s been about 3 weeks. My nightmares are INTENSE to say the least. My anxiety has been high too. But the point is to find myself. The point is to know what I’m capable of without having to turn myself off or put my brain into a fog to get through things. The point is to have a relationship with myself that I can be proud of and trust. How could I trust myself before when I knew I couldn’t stop myself from doing something I grew to hate? The point is to FEEL LIFE. It’s incredibly hard and there are a million daily triggers that say, “just go buy a joint”. But I don’t do it - so far. I pray this sticks and that a year from now I can say I am a former cannabis user. I don’t know how I can go back now after putting in this time.
I was one of the anonymous checks in back in September about my use of THC. I am finally white knuckling off after 20 years of daily use, as I had hoped to do. It’s been about 3 weeks. My nightmares are INTENSE to say the least. My anxiety has been high too. But the point is to find myself. The point is to know what I’m capable of without having to turn myself off or put my brain into a fog to get through things. The point is to have a relationship with myself that I can be proud of and trust. How could I trust myself before when I knew I couldn’t stop myself from doing something I grew to hate? The point is to FEEL LIFE. It’s incredibly hard and there are a million daily triggers that say, “just go buy a joint”. But I don’t do it - so far. I pray this sticks and that a year from now I can say I am a former cannabis user. I don’t know how I can go back now after putting in this time.
Excellent honest reflections on pot… I am interested to see how many people are like me dealing with food addiction issues SUGAR in particular