“I wasn’t sure from moment to moment whether I was enjoying myself or not. I kept asking myself if I was doing something I didn’t want to do, or doing something wrong.”
SLAA
+1
“The truth is, I have worked hard to not dislike myself so much, but I still worry, sometimes in an acute, frightened, little-kid way, about being too weird and maybe even scary.”
Fear
+3
“Once you’ve stopped anesthetizing yourself from reality you’re immediately forced to become present or die trying.”
TSB Features
+2
A love song for Andrea Gibson.
Death
“In a wine-drunk fugue state, I’d sent half a dozen emails to a Korean woman I’d never met, demanding that she PayPal me 500 American dollars, or else I would give the cat away.”
Love
“What if it’s not so much that I don’t believe in God, but that I do, and just haven’t accepted it yet?"
“I had impostor syndrome -- but for slowly killing yourself.”
Therapy
“You can never go back to what you were, and what you could have been will always be out of reach.”
“I felt like I'd found the key to a door I knew I needed to open.”
Gratitude
"They were always drinking, as far back as I can remember, in a way that I can now recognize as problematic, but at the time it was just the way things were."
"I felt like I was muting a part of myself, censoring my identity and erasing key parts without even realizing it."
The Small Bow Family Orchestra
+4
"I ran through a stop sign on August 7, 2019, the same day Berman hung himself. It was, in fact, the last day I drank."
Alcoholism
by Clancy Martin
Depression
A TV writer reflects on her shitty summer of magical realism.
Relapse
by Katie MacBride
By Madeleine Aggeler
Sobriety
by Molly McGlynn
+7
