“The truth is, I have worked hard to not dislike myself so much, but I still worry, sometimes in an acute, frightened, little-kid way, about being too weird and maybe even scary.”
Fear
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The first day of the rest of your life.
TSB Features
by Jason Brown
“Once you’ve stopped anesthetizing yourself from reality you’re immediately forced to become present or die trying.”
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Another first-person essay on what it’s like to love an addict.
“In a wine-drunk fugue state, I’d sent half a dozen emails to a Korean woman I’d never met, demanding that she PayPal me 500 American dollars, or else I would give the cat away.”
Love
“What if it’s not so much that I don’t believe in God, but that I do, and just haven’t accepted it yet?"
“I had impostor syndrome -- but for slowly killing yourself.”
Therapy
“You can never go back to what you were, and what you could have been will always be out of reach.”
